Life free of toxins!

To the extent of my knowledge, I have been a congruent , homogeneous person who has stuck to my word - I proudly think that " I am woman of my word ".I cannot sleep if I hurt someone consciously or when I cannot keep up my word.How I wish that I cannot even hurt a fly.I cannot hide about myself which may be a bad trait but I prefer it that way rather than painting a great picture of myself when I am sure that is apocryphal.

I often come across the circumstances which are compelling to change my integrity, commitment and the People who accosted me dump me rendering an emotional fiasco.... but The effort I put to maintain a "single person preferring not to wear masques" is worth the effort because I perceive myself as a person with " Strong core" who will not change with changing conditions, ebbs and webs of life. The emotions manifested in chronic health conditions, inconsolable grief,I don't want an aberration PRINCIPLES and noble ambitions but have to defer my ambitions addressing the problems in my personal life :( .I know the world is posing me an ordeal, I will not give up what I always wanted.I have realized that I am strong,a relatively an independent person, I am sure one day people around will also.

Thinking of the efforts which people with multiple personality traits suffer the hassle of time taken to make a decision , cook up lies takes more time and think about the consequences of multiple personality is too cumbersome.I feel being point blank is the best way of life annulling negative emotions which generate toxins in our body.I dream and I work of a toxin free body, mind and if there is such a thing called soul!

Quest for e c a e P

The quest for peace has always ended me in a loony bin and more so when I am trying to seek happiness from others, freedom , trying to realize my ambitions , Trying to separate myself from the rest of the world unknowing I am an element of this system has left in pieces than even a stint of peace.

The urge to compete with crowd has totally faded, by not conflicting with what I really enjoy ...I enjoy a state with no resistance

I muse ......

- > when I realise my insignificance in this *scheme* of life , I guage my true worth and This can be the only only path leading to peace